bitter reality Everyone has days when he is face reality and realizes that he can not achieve anything.
I myself had such an experience yesterday. As the dance teacher to the pregnant schoolgirl turned and asked if everything was in order. The student - which I have been in the locker room if her pregnant belly with a clean, bright and thoughtful - it meant that only the tiny people felt in their had made and everything was okay.
shot through me again a stab in my heart. I'm pretty sure, for a woman, there is nothing worse than the knowledge, not to become pregnant. Sure, there are exceptions among us, but the majority feel this inner drive. The reproductive instinct is strong and I am subject to this and it is - especially in such moments as described above - very strong, sometimes so strong that it caused physical pain.
But curiously, he is not strong enough, my wrong body parts, if required of me an act of procreation. On the contrary, this engine requires me to be pregnant. I consider this further evidence that the driver is ultimately the body mapping is assumed and, consequently, can only work this way. Tell me, tell me - will bring the drive to become pregnant and not to father a child, as it logically would be the case with a male BodyMap - with my female BodyMap.
I well remember my "preliminary" phase, it may sound a little strange, but the name it is well aimed. Between 22 and 25, I seemed surrounded by pregnant women or women with prams or young children. At every corner they were everywhere, even in my dreams. At that time the impulse was propagating extreme. At the time this engine would possibly even my BodyMap overloaded, so I'm independent I would "switch plan" propagated by means of impregnating another woman. But even then it would have seemed to me as a betrayal of nature and especially on myself. I am a woman, I can not father children.
That reminds me of just, I often wished fervently that I was infertile, only to a permitted by the Company have reason to, not me mate. This may seem ridiculous, it's every man by society, whether we like diese_r children or not. But let's be realistic about what their parents do not, at some point to be grandparents?
The pressure from this side is sometimes not so small and I hereby apologize from bottom of my heart for my sister that I have this "task" as it were devolved to them. But who knows, maybe some day even a person like me be allowed to adopt children. Another advantage would have it, I could so the diaper change phase skip ;-)
* sigh *
This is only a small consolation for my inability to get pregnant and I wish this fate no woman, so I would like briefly to Dr. Platt's book indicates "Hormone Revolution" where he describes how likely means of adding progesterone, pregnancy, and - when fed throughout pregnancy continued - also a premature birth is unlikely.
Every woman has the right to become pregnant, whether they can or not. But in some cases, the current medical help for me, however, there are (still) no help. Why I will fight all the more that lifted the ban and I may one day adopt baby!
